God Knows Where I Am

In the past several months, I've had this amazing anxiety about my future. Wondering what God's will is for my life. Praying for dreams to come true and for my future to make sense. It's been painful.

My pastor said something the other day that struck home. He said, "God knows right where we are." I have this control issue where I think I have to go out and make God's will happen. Like, if I don't make the calls or write the letters, it will never come true. But I should know better. Most miracles in my life have come when I wasn't looking.

A woman once told me no man can keep me from God's will. I think that includes me. I make all these efforts, but to what end? I don't really want anything not ordained by Him anyway. So, what do I need to do? Learn to wait on Him.

He blesses me daily and I need to remember that. Already I have two books coming out in 2007: "The Human Video Handbook--Christian Outreach through Mime, Music & Dance" and "Reveille of the Heart." Thank you, Lord for blessing me...despite my interference.